Thursday, January 20, 2011

Project Love ME: prompt 3- Dream- Flipside



Dreams Unrealized
Scrap a layout about a dream that for one reason or another will never come true. What was your dream and why have you given it up?  How do you feel about that?  What have you learned through the process of not realizing this dream?

I want to tell you the story of a dream that I had, ever since I was a little girl. It was a dream I carried with me for a long time. I never thought about the fact that no matter what I did, it would never ever come true. 

I wanted to be an air force pilot. 


I thought about this all the time, so when the time came in high school to really start to think about my future.... I stopped and really thought of what I could do to peruse my dream. What stopped me?? I'm legally blind in my right eye. I had a cataract removed when I was in the 3rd grade. They always say that it developed around the time I turned 6 months old. Its something that never truly phased me... but all together with one simple sentence from a recruiter stopped the dream... You can't fly.   

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

journal entry- 1/19


credits: Grab Bag Collection

To my beautiful emma grace. Its been an amazing 3 month stretch we’ve had together. Its been full of amazing times, sad times, stressful times, joyful times, and all around fun times. You begin by simply putting the biggest smile on my face. Every new move you make, every new sound, and every giggle I hear makes me laugh. Every screaching cry and every painful somber, makes me cry. I take in everything, even though it feels like a ton of bricks resting on my chest. I never thought or knew what this would feel like, this overwhelming feeling of being a mother. A mother is a nurse, playdate, friend, comedian, scientist, imaginary tickle monster, snuggly cuddle bear, and psychic spy. I feel that I’m all those things every single day. I write you this letter so that one day you know exactly how I feel every second I’m with you. I know someday I’ll be able to show you and you know exactly what I’m saying, but for now I sit while you are asleep and think, pray, and journal down all my feelings this way. I show you all the love and affection I can every waking hour of my life. You are my life. You are everything to me. I spend my days waking up early in the morning and snuggling with you while you grab an additional hour or two of sleep. Then we head down steairs while I prep our breakfast. I usually grab a bowl of cereal and you a bottle. We both eat and I’m ready to begin the day. Somedays tough, we both sneak in an extra nap. Sometimes I take that time to do my hobbies like cleaning the house, scrapbooking, painting, or taking photographs. Usually you are my photographic inspiration so I do that when you are up. We spend our days playing, reading, singing, talking, taking pictures, watching educational television, or visiting places. Some of your favorite places to visit our your best boyfriends Brady and Evan. They are ttwin boys born to mommy’s good friends Stephanie and Mike. You also like to go to the mall and get pushed around as you check out all the faces. You love to go visit family. You have an amazing large and loving family that consist of Grandma Melody, Grandma Toby, Grandpa Ronnie, Grandpa Duane, and then your your 9 aunts and uncles. You learn so much from all ot them. Like grandma Melody taught you how to click your tongue, and Uncle Ryan taught you how to constantly stick out your tongue. It seems like you pick those things up easily. You are so stinking smart thats why! You are so far ahead on your developement that you’ve passed up most kids that are three months old. Well I look forward to all the time we still have left to spend together. I know I have a fun day planned of releaxing and cuddling, learning, singing, playing, and talking today!. Much love always.
xo Mommy

Monday, January 17, 2011

warning.. super cuteness enclosed

Warning super cuteness!! 


another new Emma video! 

shes a doll

Things I do in spare time??

So I'm sure you wonder what crazy things your momma does when shes bored?? 

lets see....

I create artwork! Mommy loves to grab out an old paint brush and a dirty shirt while I spend my afternoon covering a stretched white canvas with acrylic paints.

I love to photograph! I photograph mostly you, your puppy, mommy and daddy, and family and friends. 


then I love to digitally scrapbook!! its an amazing stress reliever and its a community full of amazing women.

I create digital layouts like this one!


and then I create and work for many amazing women at:

Scrap Orchard- full time
Lauren Grier- February *hopefully longer after that*
Log you rmemory- June 2011

So I spend a lot of time in their forums and chatting with people. 

then I spend time on Facebook

then I'm either working on your blog, exercising, working, motivating women, and then the majority of my time is doing my favorite thing in the whole world.....

SPENDING THE DAY WITH YOU!!!

xoxo Mommy 

Thursday, January 13, 2011

Journal entry- 1/13/11, photo a day, and to my readers

To my readers-

So like any type of daily journalistic blog... you don't always have the nicest posts. Since I'm here recording for the purpose of Emma, then I don't feel like I edit out and make everything seem... all Hunky Dorry, as Emma's great grandma would call it ;) The last few days many things have happened that is really personal and hard for us. Its things that I want Emma to know, so she knows that no matter how bad or low things get, you know you will always get over it. If you do everything you can do, you will preserver. 

- REMEMBER... this is real life blogging here ;) -

journal entry-

So like I said baby, we haven't had the best of luck the last few days. Its hard, but daddy has lost his job :( Since Daddy works as an Assistant Manager of a company called Blockbuster *which honestly will not be around when you are old enough to read this.


So since Mommy is a stay at home mom and I only work a couple days at Sally Beauty Supply, We are both out looking for new jobs. I know it will be hard for a little while, but in times like these you'll come out stronger than before.

Also last night around 12 you had really bad clammy sweats so Mommy had to call the nursing hotline. You slipped and bumped your head so they wanted to check you out. I knew you were okay I just called the nurse to check on it... and they have to tell you to come in. So around midnight we drove up after a terrible snow storm and sat in the er while the examined and made sure your head was okay. It was and you are completely healthy and fine. 

Honestly since its 1 am I just wanted to journal a bit about what has happened and show you the latest photos... I'll be on later to talk more.

On a sweeter side I'm helping the community of digital scrappers lose weight. I'll be taking on the challenge as well. My job is to gather up sponsors and keep the organization of people and sponsors.

and another really cool thing is... I won the


I won with this layout-

she said some super sweet words!! it made my day. In return shes making me a super cute blinkie to share with all the ladies doing the Skinny Jeans Challenge

I love that Susan spun the challenge to work for her. She writes about being a new parent and all of the things that she would like to do with her daughter. Things that she thinks of when they cuddle quietly together. That really touched me!
by Laura-


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1-12-11

its Emma's first band from a hospital visit, and her and daddy looking super sweet!! 


Sunday, January 9, 2011

Journal entry- 1/9/11 Photo a day!

so super happy momma today! I've recently acquired some new people to create for! thats right I'll finally be able to digital scrapbook again. What is a creative team?? well what a creative team member does is work with a graphic designer/or group of graphic designers to create or make pages/projects with their work to showcase and help them advertise, in return... you get the products for free if you meet certain requirements such as advertising requirements and creative  requirements. Its a super great community of very talented women! I can't wait to share all the work I do with you, and maybe omg yes maybe one day... we can do it together!!! i guess if its still cool and all. lol So you'll be seeing amazing products/challenges/techniques/tips/and layouts from:


LogYourMemory (starting June)

and 

Lauren Grier Designs (temporary.. in hopes for a perm spot)

okay so this might sound funny... but all the women who do what I do, have what we call the "Dream Gig" or the "Dream Team" that we wanna work for. Its usually someone we buy from or someone we just admire... ect... well two nights ago Momma got her dream team!! its only what we call a "guest spot" (which means we will work for her for a month in hopes of working permanently) It was the best feeling ever!! 

Thats for the month of February I'll be working with the super amazing talent lady named Lauren Grier. 

also i have your photo a day photos...

1-7-11


1-8-11

1-9-11

xoxo mommy

Thursday, January 6, 2011

A new layout- I'm finally getting to scrap!!

Hey I finally got the chance to scrap you another layout! I'm in love with the kit I purchased so I keep getting inspired. I was also inspired by a great post from Laura B. over at we so scrappy!

Challenge: Scrapbook one page that highlights at least 10 things that you would like to do or accomplish in your life.

here is my inspirational page-